–inSider–

 i’m feelin’ bLue..the more i try 2 keep pipOL
w/in my grasp…d mor dey tend 2 fLoat away froM mE..dat makez me feel lyk
standing on a void….—EMPTY—…i don’t wanna fall 2 pieces but i don’t know wer 2 hOLd..
     i’m Having trOUbLE sLeeping nOwadayz..maybE becoz of "hiM" en’ d prObLEm between uz..or maybe bcOz Lot of gUyz aRe Alwayz thinkin’ about mE{inCLuding HiM}.. wahahahha….<kapaL q tALAgA > niwei..4get about it..haha…shheeesshhh!…
    perhapz,most
pipoL cUm 2 a point in their Livez whEreiN dEy aRE unXur of
dEmzeLvez..sElf-doubt coupLed by sELf pitty cAused by the hurtfUl
wordz…diz caUzed onE 2 feEL depressEd..it saddens me…i don’t know
y..=(…wat’z happennin’ wid me…i felt lyk sumthing was a miss..lyk
my lyf isn’t supposed to be diz way..i felt trapped in the world dat i
don’t completely understand…i want out!!..i wanted 2 die..:’(

"pAnu nA beaUty q?!!..sayAng nman…."…^__^

"f my sorry wudn’t be enaf 2 pLz uh…den wat shud i do..i’ve been trying 2 fix diz proBLeM…but,hey!..look wat u’r doin’..uh don’t even react 2 d situaxon…it seemz lyk evrythin’z okei wid uh..shheesshh..evrytym i’m azkin’ uh..uh aLwayz used 2 answer me ‘ewan q..’..’bhaLa ka’..’wag mu n lng pansinin..auz lng aq..’…wat d?!..knowin’ dat u’r mad hurtz me reAL..so baby,pLz…..=(

    err..i don’t knw y such thingz hapenned..iz it my fAUlt?!.. xori…d q aLm qng bkit sa tuwing aq ung ngxoxori xeo d mu q keang ptawarin agd…kyang kya mu q tiisin….d aq snay humingi ng xori..d q gawain un..pero xeo…tsk tsk…ewan q ba…
    monthsary nten khpon…xori..d kta nbati agad..d q taLAga aLam n 7 n,eh..qng un Lng kinakakagalit mu…xori n nga…kw nga…d mu q binati kagad..d q nman talaga kinaLimutan…..

    huhu..auq ng ganito…pLz…hav me bak..don’t ever think dat i’m fooLin’ around uh…i Love uh..huhu..d q aLam qng bkit keLangan mu png magduda…pLz….piz n tau…huhu…….=(

 errr!life??!!…strange…hate it!!….grrrrr…..it’s hard 2 smiLe..but i have no choice but to do so..i hav 2 try 2 make myself happy…sheesshh!… uh know.. my feeling seems to burst!..it’s turning me insane..errrrr…it’s hard 2 explain..
    i wanna assure uh diz..ryt now…em not hapi…but trying 2 be..  eniwei…i hate d sizzling weather…uh know…it makes me sweat like a waterfOL….shheesssh!

yah..i’m wrong.. i thot i cud hav doz thingz i want in juzt one snap of my fingerz..ndi pla..ndi lhat ng bgay n gz2 q mqqha q…ndi pla lahat ng bagay sa mundo instant n…naalala q bgla c jae-an..one of my former SSc clzm8z…sbi nia sken nung ngretreat kaming mga SSC during d forum..  "npakademanding mu".. yah..dat wordz hurt me li’l…"kala mu lahat ng guzto mu mqqha mu..".. ganun aq,eh..pag guz2 q…gz2 q..pag ayw q…ayw q…pero my mga bagay palang d mu pwedeng mqha ng ganun nlng…ngkamali aq………….

 HAlf of the world doesn’t know how ader half lives..or let’s just say dat nobody knows how ader pipol exactly live in diz nitwit world…And,yes..uh don’t know how am i  exactly living..
    hU AM i?!..i’m jUzt a young girL..living her life in her own way..I’m d princess and sLave of my own worLd.. I’m all alone..No mom around to check the thingz happenin’ around me..  She left d country for work…and i’m totally missing her.. No dad to save wen i’m in danger.. I am covered by the bitt
erness…embraced by the loneliness.. and carried by the sadness of  life…
    I am so lost..Totally lost..I’m on my way,but i don’t know wer i am going..I  wanna die…..I don’t wanna cry coz everyone belivz i am strong..They say that i’m amazing coz i am strong beyond my yearz…But they don’t see the tearz falling inside me…………