–inSider–

.hmmm…
.sUmtimes I’m gEttin’ thiz
‘i’m better you‘ feeLing in my bLood….
.wEn dEr izn’t riLi anything tO bE bEtter abOut….

.I mEan,
people can feel pain
and sUch…
.dEy cAn gEt attAched
to pEopLe and crEate
sUmthin’ oUt of it…..

.I uSe tO bE abLe to dO dAt…
.but it’z hArd tO remEmber
hOw,why,when lately…

.I think,
.I fake my fEElings out sO mUch..:((
.I jUzt reprEss everythiNg…
.Like a shAdow in a way….

.At d eNd of the dAy,
.uh want tO fEEL Lyk
uh beLong sUmwHeRe
and fEEL Loved……

.I feeL Lyk disappear in my rOOm...andthink of things….
.I juzt stay awake on cEllphone’s tOne….

.Thinking….
.DrawiNg…..
.Writing….
.Crying….

.watching the time go by…