–inSider–

.hmmm…
.sUmtimes I’m gEttin’ thiz
‘i’m better you‘ feeLing in my bLood….
.wEn dEr izn’t riLi anything tO bE bEtter abOut….

.I mEan,
people can feel pain
and sUch…
.dEy cAn gEt attAched
to pEopLe and crEate
sUmthin’ oUt of it…..

.I uSe tO bE abLe to dO dAt…
.but it’z hArd tO remEmber
hOw,why,when lately…

.I think,
.I fake my fEElings out sO mUch..:((
.I jUzt reprEss everythiNg…
.Like a shAdow in a way….

.At d eNd of the dAy,
.uh want tO fEEL Lyk
uh beLong sUmwHeRe
and fEEL Loved……

.I feeL Lyk disappear in my rOOm...andthink of things….
.I juzt stay awake on cEllphone’s tOne….

.Thinking….
.DrawiNg…..
.Writing….
.Crying….

.watching the time go by…

.i hAtE it..
.i LOve it..
.cALL me eMO.
.i dOn’t giVe a sh*t!.
.Lyf iZ 80% tOrtUre..[yez..it iz].
.aNd i might gEt d pipOL sayiNg:.
."oh,it’z nOt dAt bAd…"..or
."it wiLL gEt bEtter…"…
.and sh*t..dn’t agrEE wid or aLreAdy kNow.

.dEr’z oLweiz a waLL…
.sUmthin’ in d way,
a driving force agAinst mE…
.i kip rUnnin’ at it…
.i gOt kNOcked oUt…
.and kip tryin’ aNd tryiN’…
.i pAint it..
.i hAck at it..
.i’ve triEd cLimbing it..
.jUzt tO find my way arOund it….

.yEz..i’m whining…
.i shUt up abOut my Lyf prEtty weLL
aLL dAy..aLL d tyM tO evEryoNe..
.hEre i rAmbLe..grOwL..
.it’z hArd fAcing everydAy…
.i want tO stAy sLeeping…
.drEaming..oUt of rEALity..

.i hAte dAt everythin’ is agAinst mE..
.eVen on gOod dAyz..or in gOod mOodz..
.sUmthin’ isn’t ryt or gOez rOng…
.i’m nOt azkin’ fOr pErfEctioN...
.bUt mOr dAn oNe gOOd dAy a mOnth wUd bE
niCe...
.h*LL,one gOod dAy in a mOnth wUd bE
okei,i guess..
.i myt gEt a gOOd dAy oNce every tHree
mOnthz..
.and it’z oftEn fOLLowed by a wEEk of
sh*t wOrsE dAn usuAL..

.gOttA hAvE bALAnce,ryt?!…
.f*ck!!..zzz..>;/

.whew!.

.diz gOnna bE maH firsT bLog for diz mOnth.

.i reALLy dOn’t knOw wat 2 bLog abOut.

.bUt i fEEL LikE bLogging.haha!..;)) 

.im sO fed-up. [not sO obviOuz].haha!.

.i’m jAded..gLUttEred..bored.[az oLweiz].ü

.wat happened diz mOnth?!.

.ugh!.nOthin’ nEw!.haha!.

                     .uh-owh!..ooopz..

.i pazzed d exam!.haha!.

                   .izn’t it awesOme?!..ü

.xo wat mOre?!.

♥ i undErtake d mOving-on pRocess!.haha!

•[boi.see?!.i'm aLmost ovER uh..]

                .wahaha!.ü 

           ♥.we bOth knOw it’z DEAD.♥ 

          ♥.it’z bEEn dying fOr sUmtym.♥

          ♥.bUt wE refUse 2 Let it gO.♥

.why?!..coz we’r sTupid!.wahaha!.

".my heart is crippled by d vein

dat i kip on cLOsin’….

            uh cUt mE opeN and i….

            keep bLeeding..

keep keep bLeeding LOVE"..

.dont worry..i’L be okei sUmdei.haha!.

.i wanna shAre uh sUmthin’.

.diz thin’ reALLy sUrprized mE..

        .sumbOdy tOLd me dat….

dat….dat….HE LOVES ME…

        .dat’z ooooh..oooh…stupefying!.

.he waNNa cOurt me..

     .haha!cAn uh imagine dat?!.

.so hOw sHud i hAndLe diz?!..ü

.sheeesh..sO mUch fOr diz One.

    .haha!.next tOpic…

.aww!.

i’ve gOt sh*tty Lip sOre!.

.and tO teLL yOu..

  .diz is f*ckin’ irritatin’!..

   .dEr’s a pAinfuL sensation

   wenever i sPoke a fEw wOrdz…

.in fAct,it’z pAthetic!..errr…

  .OK.THE NEXT THING IS.

.diz mOOd swingz arE d*mN weird.

.i cAn sUddenLy bEcOme d*mn EMO.

[for nO reazon,jUZt nOw]

.and bEcOmE d*mn HAPPY Later!.

.gRoooh!FREAKY jEnn!.haha!.

                             .wat to say..

                             .wat to say..

                             .wat to say?!..haha!.

.em rUnnin’ Out oF woRdz…

.wait…

.it’z sUmmer tym!..

                     .hOtta hOtta!.

                      .LALALALa.

                     .waaaaaaaaaa…

                     .BEACH beybei…

                        .waaaaaaaaa..

                        .beach.bEach.bEAch…ü

.ooooooooooh..dat’z sOOOOO fUn!!…

"under d sea…

under d sea…

                      darLin’ it’z bEtter…

                      dOwn whEre it’z wEtter…

take it fRom me…………."

                       .wahahaha!!….

.nOthin’ mOre 2 say..

                        .wahaha!.gimme mOney!..ü