..sooooo..what`z up?!!..
.okEi,i`m really sad..
.Lyf iZ so toUgh..
.I dOn`t knOw wAt 2 dO anymOr..
.weL.i knOw ryt now
.i`m doin’ d bEZt tHiNg 2 do..
.but wAt i`m doin’ hUrtz mE evEn mOre..
.i cAn`t imAginE myself
.i-Love-uH..i-Loved-uh.
.i’m sorry ________…
.i wish it cUd jUzt bE simpLE..
.Like a retro pop song..
."I want you to want me".
.boooomm~!!!!.
.end of d stOry..
.wE aLL Liv hAppiLy evEr aftEr.
.but it iz nvEr riLi Lyk dAt.
.iz it?!.;[
hayy..i’m goin’ crAzy.. sUmtymZ, wEn I LUk bak and think of all the "cOuLd hAve beenz" in my Lyf,
I often wonder if I made the right choice..
tama b n e2 ung pniLi q at ndi un..
tama b n and2 aq sa situation n 2 at waLa dun??!..
Did I missed a road sign?!!
Am I on the right track?
crOssrOads ……..
dey happen all d tYm —
sAying goodbye 2 sUm and choosing onLy one…
.Letting go…
.holding on..settling for now..but facing wAt mUst cUm…
yez..in LifE..wE aLL rEach a crossrOad sUmtimez…
.wE mAke painful decisions..
.and take some risks as we pursue our dreams…
.but one should not stAy at d crossroads too long…
.fOr even d birds hAv 2 leave their nests sometime
and learn how to fly…
.LYf’s road is Long and rough..
and deR are stretches wEn one has 2 do it all alone..
.and should uh meet d cross at the road, be consoled…
.yeZ, mor often dan not…
.d road Less travelled wiLL sureLy bring you home..
.fAce the light and d shAdow falls behind uh…
.tUrn ur back and d shadow stays in front of you…
.Indeed, the truth hurts…
.but it will surely set you free…
.d bitter pangs of parting will give birth to another moment called growing….
Death-life’s final
tragedy…ultimate thief. an over looming reality dat life is slipping away
second by second…it’s a foolish consistency 2 think dat uh are exempted in
diz scary ending of life……each of uz has our own limit…
yeah..Many of us are
afraid to die…afraid 2 left diz silly worLd… but we can’t get rid of
diz…we can’t run…we can’t hide…watever we do…werever we go…death wiLl
olweiz be part of our mortal life…death olweiz LEave sadness..pain..scar..
and emptiness 2 d loved ones of its victim………….yes,it hurtz..
death took my father wen i was
seven…i was just a li’l innocent girl w/o enaf knowledge abt d thingz
happenin’ around..i juzt saw dem cryin’… screamin’.. i don’t know why…til
my mom told me dat my dad is dead..at the moment there was only a sudden
blankness in my heart, like
sum part of
myself had been taken,torn away so fast dat i didn’t know wat 2
feel..it wud
cum searing.. burning.. scarring,but ryt now der was only a hole,a
void..
albeit one w/c wud eventually overflow wid d feeling..death stOle my
dad az quick as a wink of an eye..i couldn’t beliv how my fader’z young
life cud be cut so short..of all d bad pipol living in thiz foolish
world..y my dad??!!…i feel the pain of not being able to tell him how
much i cared about him and loved him before he passed away.. i was not
able 2 hug and kiss him for the last time..
i’m
missin’ my dad…i wish i cud turn bak hiz life..if only i hav d
power… w/o my dad..my world became less friendly..less understanding
pLAce..the thought of hiz parting has olweiz been..alwayz..and will
olweiz be painfUL…
.cAn’t hELp bUt cRy…hE’z azkin’ me 2 fOrgEt everythin’ abOut hiM..he waNted me 2 fInd anader gUy hU’z wOrth my Love..hu desErves mE mOre daN him..but,i cAn’t…it’z nOt dat eAzy…fOrgettiNg sUmone iZ nOt jUzt One sNAp of Our fIngerz….it’z beeN 4 mOnthz sInce we brOke up..perO..i’m wOndrin’ whY ngauN LNg nia cNabi xaken n kLimutAn q xa..sabi niA dati mAgstArt kaMi uLit..perO bkit ngAUn…aNg sakit…i never thought i’d bE thiz nUmb 4 LovIng hiM…
02.04.08
"Pwede poh humingi ng favor?!..
anO un?!..
"Pwede poh bAng kLimuTAn mo n q?!..Klimutan mo ng minAhAl mo q?!..Auqng nahihirApan at nsasaktan ka..Plz poh…
d q kYa…=(
"PLz..hAngga’t di mo cnicmuLan lalo kang mahihirApaN..pLz pOh…
aUq q nga…d q kYa..d gAnUn kdaLi un…bkit b guzto mOng kLimutAn kitA…
"PLz nmAn,oh..Nakokonsensya aq…Mbuti pAng di mO n q nakiLaLa..kUng tLagang mahaL mo q…pLz…gAwin mU un…
dpAt nuon mo p cnabi yan..ang sakit kYa..aNu maNgyayari pAg kinaLimutan kita?!..cnabi q n nman saUng d q kaya..pnipilit mo p rin aq…
"Mkakamuv-on k din..makakakita k ng tAmang guy para sau..dhil ndi aq un..Plz poh…
ang kUlet mo tLga!..d q nga sabi kayang magmahal ng iba!..ang tigaz ng uLo…tzk..
"Hayy…ok lNg nman un..U deserv 2 be happy…Humanap k ng iba..
db sabi mu nmAN kgabi mahAl mo p rin nMAn aq..bkit nGAun…guz2 muNg kLimutaN kita…
"sobra sobra n ung ksalanan q sau..auqng msaktan ka uLi..Plz poh…
bkit..hAhayaaN mo b qng mazaktan uLit?!…tingin k nga sa sKy..bkit waLaNg stArz ngauN?!..=(
"Malamang poh uulAn..Jen,klimutan m n ung pgmamahAL mo saken…palayain mo n ung sarili mo..MAs mabuti pang makaibigan n lNg talaga tAu..
auq ng feeliNg na toh…tapoz ung gLow in the dark nmaN sa ceiLing q d nAgggLow..nkakainiz..wALA n nmAn c mama…wALA nagcocomfOrt xken…
"Buksan mO muna uLit ung iLaw mo…tapoz patayin mo uLit…
waLa!!!..npundi iLaw q knina!!..huahahah!!..weaK..auq nman Lumabas paRA papaLtan..bka itanUng qng bkit gn2 mata q…
"Hayy..pALAyain mo n nmAn sariLi mo..Plz…
bkit ba…bkit ba guz2 mong kalimutan kita??!..
"Kc uN ang narapat sau… makakabuti sau un….
makakabuti saken o sau?!!!…
"Sa ating daLAwa…d Lng sau..pAti n rin saken…
aNung gagawin q?!…mghahanap aq ng iba?!…auq…bkit parang ang dali lng sau…plibhasa kaung mga lalaki d marunong msaktan..madali lang senio makalimot…
"Masakit din un saken..Pero tanggapin n nten ang totoo…hindi aq karapat dapat sau….
bazta d p end ng fairytale q…naten…ampotpot…gumana n nman imahinasyon q…nyahaha!…
"OO na..hindi pa…
tnx…ü
"Kya nga wag mong pigilan sarili mo n mgmahal ng iba..qng tau talga..eh,di tau..
haha!!..asa!..d aq ganun..try q nlng maging happi khit d na tau..saka d q na kelangang humanap..dami nakapila…
"Eh,di pumili k sa nkapiLa..
aUq nga!!..auq magbf ng d q mahal…nanLoq n q ng iba..pati sariLi q loloqhin q pa…
Kaya mo yan…impocbLeng ndi…
d mo kc alam qng gano kita kamahal kya m0 nsasabi yan…qng kiLaLa mu Lng tLga aq…cnasabi q sau..mababaLiw k sken..d mu hahayaang mwala aq..
"Kaw kc,eh..ayw mOng magpakilala…Joke…Malay mo pag ngkita tau…Pero dapat klimutan mu ung pgmmhal mo sken…mgmahal k ng iba..wag mo rin sabihin ung pghihintay..darating at darating din yan..qng talagang destined..tama ba?!!…
oo na!!..pxalamat k mahal kita..gagayahin q n lng c trixia…my naipalit kgad ky kenkoy nia..hahahaha!..
"Gnon..ok lng un…magbf k ng iba…pakabait k ha…
ngek?!..pakabait aq?!.hehe..para nmang ang bad girl q…auq muna magbf ng iba ngaun..kaya q 2…anjan k p rin nman para saken db?!…saka ung cnsabi mu knina…tama nga un…d nman nten alam ung will ni God,eh..
"Cno ipapalit mo sken?!…
ngek?!..waLa!..haha..kayA q nmAng mamuhay ng siNgLe,eh..ano k ba…sa 22o Lng..dun sa unang 2 beses n nagbreak tau…d nAman 22ong ngkabf aq..sabi q lng un..kc may napalit k kagad saken…
"GnoN…wag mo n phirapan sarili mo..mgmahal k ng iba…
ang kuLet tLGa…auq nga..d ganUn kadali un…yaan mo pag my bago n q bf..kaw unang makakaalam…=(
Sorry…
hehe…
kalimutan mo n ung pgmmhal mo saken para maging msaya ka na…
masaya nman aq,ah..tnx ha..kc ikaw ung reason behind my smile..nagtxt n saken c mama..wag q dw dibdibin..my likod p dw nman aq…
Pwede nman aqng maging rizon ng pagngiti mo…frend mo p rin nman aq..hanap k lng ng katuLong q…
magkano sweldo?!hehe..
Mahal ka ng kukunin mo at mamahalin mo rin..d n kailangan ng sweldo para mpasaya ka..
kulet tlaga…d q nga kelangan ng iba bazta anjan ka…bzta anjan ka..paulit ulit n lng tau,ah…d rin pala ma22pad ung deal nten dati..tanda mu p un?!..{deal nmen un nung hizkul p kmi}
Ung pag nagkita tau ulet..tau uli…tanda q p un…iba n deal nten..maghanap k n poh ng iba..tapoz kung tau talga,eh di tau..Yan…
sana talaga ganun lng kadali un..:’(..yaan mo mppgod din aq..dOn’t wori..
"Hayy..yan n nman tau…
kulet mo kc…
Hayy…Sorry tlga..Pero ito ung tama,eh..d n kc tama yang gngwa mo sa sarili mo…Plz namn..kalimutan mo n q…
oo na!!…oo na!!…
Sorry…
hehe…
hayy..an2k n q…sorry ulet..goodnyt poh…
haha..aun!..inan2k k din..hehehe..geh..mejo late n nman 2Log q ngaun…lagot ka..pinuyat mo q…
Sorry..napuyat kita…
_if onLy he cud feEL d pAin im feeLin’ dat nYt_
.naUboz Luha q dun..umaga n q nka2Log..;(
i dOn’t kNow y i keep oN Loving d same pErzOn hu huRt me dAt mUch..i dOn’t kNow y i kiP On waitiNG fOr sUmOne hu wazn’t dEr 2 begIn wid..i dOn’t know y i oLweiz wanted him bAck into my Life..i dON’t know….i reALLy dOn’t kNow...am i reALLy dat nUmb?!..yez,mOving oN is eAzy..wat’z mAkin’ it hArd is d pErzOn behiNd…=’ (
.02.03.08.
guy: [kowt]
girL: watta?!.ampotpot nmAN nun..hahaha..
guy: maguLo nga buhay niA db…
girL: haha..ang guLo nga dami twizt..muzta?!..
guy: auz Lng…ikw?!..
girL: auz Lng rin?!..haha!..
guy: bakit mY queztiOn mark?!…
girL: La Lng..haha..d q xUr,eh..haha…
guy: Bakit nman…
girL: bazta Lng..haha..yaAn mu lNg…wag mu n Lng pansinin..hahaha…nAmiz kita..
guy: Owz?!…nmiz dw aq…bkit nga d k xUre….
girL: haha…ayw n nmAng maniwaLA..haha…
guy: O cia..cge na..naniniwaLA na….
girL: nyAHahaha!..hAlAtang napiLitan…haha..aUZ Lng nMAn qng d k mniwALA,eh..haha..
guy: Uhmmm…..bkit mo b q naMiz?!..
girL: pweh!..pa-uhmm uhmm k p jan…haha..namiz kita kc..uhmmmm…hahah!!…
guy: bkit mo nga ba q namiz…
girL: namizz kita kz…nakakamizz k,eh..haha!..
guy: nkakamizz pLA aq…akaLain mu un…
girL: haha…akaLAin mu nga nmAn un..
guy: niLoLoko mo Lng ata aq,eh…
girL: ngek?!..bkit nmAN kita LoLoqhin?!..
guy: Ewan q..mAlay q b…
girL: ganun?!.. ganYan pLA tingin mu xken?!..
guy: Sori….
girL: kain na..
guy: Tapoz n poh…
girL: aUn..d mAN Lng naNg-ALok…
guy: Eh qng agawan mo q?!..hehe..joke..
guy: _____________________
girL: weh..haha..
guy: weh ka jan..
girL: haha…bLAnc,eh..d q aLAm sasagOt q..haha!…
guy: Gnon?!..
girL: oo..gAnun..haha..
guy: Magkwento k nmAN…Muzta LuvLyf mo?!…
girL: hahahahha!!!..pweh!..anUng kkwento q?!..
guy: Nagtanung n nga aq paRA may masagOt ka…
girL: haha..gAnon..
guy: Ano nga…
girL: haha..anung anu nga?!..
guy: TntanUng k,ai..
girL: haha..ung Luvlyf b?!..waLA..weak.haha…d p q nkakamuV-on..nstock n ata aq xeo…
guy: Bkit gAnon…HAyy…
girL: aLin ang bkit gNon?!!...
guy: Sori…
girL: san?!..
guy: sa lahat..ang laki ng ksalanan q sau..
girL:haha!..auz Lng yAn…tAnga Lng tALga aq kea d aq mkamuv-on..
guy: wag mo nman tAngahiN sariLi mo…
girL: weh..bkit nmAn..22o nman,eh..
guy: Ksalanan q un,eh…kya nsasaktan ka..
girL: haha!..anu k b?!..auz lng un..bubu lng tlga aq kya d q kyang alizin nraramdaman q xeo..[ahaha!!watta word!]
guy: Sori..ang laki laki ng ksalan q sau..
girL: weh..haha..auq netoh..mxado mdrama…haha…ksalanan?!..d k nman nambabae,db?!..d mu din nman aq niLoq,db?!..
guy: Oo nga..NAmbabae?!..Ndi nman…NiLoq?!..Hndi rin nman.MAhal nman tlga kta pag cnsabi q un…
girL: un nman pala,eh..wala kang kxalanan..mxado lng talga aq nagreact dun sa situaxon kea mzyado aq nzAktan..
guy: Ano mggwa q pRA m2Lungan kta?!..
girL:waLA..haha..LAgi qng cnasabi n mghihintay aq xeo..pero tae…wala nman pala aqng hnihintayin…
guy: Sabi mo aq ung hinihintay…bkit bglang wala pala?!.
girL: d q nmAN aLAm qng mhAL mu p rIn aq..bka kc hntay nga aq ng hintay..pero ung taong mhaL q pLA ayw ng bumALik..:(
guy: Hindi nman cnabing o wla namang cnbing babalik agad o malapit ng bumalik,db..mhal p rin nman kita..pero d nman pwedeng lagi kng gnyan..ndi din nman pwedeng lagi aqng and2…
girL: ewan q ba…yaan mu n lng muna…
guy: Hayy..magmuv-on k n lng muna…pwede b?!..tingin q mas mkkbuti sau un,eh..pwede poh ba?!..
girL: ampotpot…ndi un ganun kdali noh..saka auq nga..okei lng nman aq ng ganito,eh…
guy: Wag mo pgilan sarili mong mgmahal ng iba..auz lng nman un,eh…d din nman aq krapatdapat sa pgmamahal mo….
girL: weh…auq ngang mag-muv-on,eh...bazta mghihintay aq..saka lng aq ttgil pg cnbi mung tama na…d p nga tapoz ung fairytale nten,eh…
guy: Nasang part n b ung fairytale nten?!sa tingin mo we will live happiLy ever after?!..
girL: ewan q..hehe..wala p nga ata sa climax un,eh..d mu p nga aq nkikita ulit,eh..haha…i’m u’r imaginary priNcess!..haha…
guy: Kya nga,eh…daya mo…
girL: ahahha..anu kinadaya q?!..auz lng yan…d p end ng story..hehe..
guy: Ok..hayy..pero wag mo nmang ganyanin sarili mo…
girL: haha?!..bkit..inanu q b sariLi q..don’t wori..okei Lng nman aq,eh…
guy: Sure k lng ha…
girL: oo nman..xur un..geh na..nytz..switdrimz..ingatz.. i miz uh..u’l olweiz be my baby..=)..tnx..
guy: Ok..Pahinga k na..Goodnyt..switdrimz..Ingatan mo sarili mo,ha…
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